11.20.2024

Girlfriend and I have our anniversary soon, in december :333333 ONE YEAR!!!!!!!!!! I'm vry happy i lvoeeeee him

Not much to update on, honestly, but its a half day and I have no therapy so I have time to do fuckall when i get home ^_^

my tummy hurt idk why. all i ate was a muffin so i cant imagine it got upset,, but whatever i guess. Finished the last part of my math test and my spanish work so I have nooooothing to do when i get home!!!!!

Its that season again, the season of reinserting yourself into the cycle of abuse and then complaining about the consequences, so Ill be updating FSR again (bet you havent heard that name in a while)

My first semester of college courses is almost over too,, weird how time flies lolz

mmmmmm anyway I might draw Mouthwashing fanart too cuz I do like Mouthwashing,, its been nominated for goty so I hope it wins!!!!!!!

11.18.2024

I'm officially back at school

IM SO HAPPY BRO U HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA HOW HARD ITS BEEN BEING HOME THIS WHOLE TIME WAHHHH

IM IN CLASS IM GONNA LEARN IM GONNA SPEAK SPANISH AND DO MATH AND WATCH CNN10

I LOVE SCHOOOOOOL wWAAAAA IM SO FREAING HAPPY. I GOT TO SEE ALL MY FRIENDS AND YAYAYYYAYYAYY

Therapy today sO i have to leave early, but its better than nothing at all

11.11.2024

GYATT guys im so bored. sigh. Might make a page dedicated to all my plushies bc I love them sm bro dont event start....

I have never willingly given up one of my stuffed animals.

JESUS CHRSIT DUDE I JUST GOT THE WORST STOMACH PAIN IM NEVER EATING AGAIN WTF WAS THAT. JESUSSSS

THAT HURT SO BAD GOODBYE. Anyway I was at my school this morning for a 504 meeting and requesting a complex screening. So i will probably be diagnosed with autism soon who cheered

Anyway yea thats all i got HELP uhhhhh idk im doing my gov work rn but im just bored so im updating instead

11.6.2024

Trump won

I refuse to back down after almost 7 years and finally figuring my identity out. Its stupid. I just fucking refuse.

I live in a red state, South Carolina, I'm probably screwed honestly. Idfk. I survived his first presidency but I also wasn't transgender for the majority of it. I dunno.

Im just tired. The majority party of the Senate is red. We are screwed. He can just do anything he wants at this point.

I'm never going to give up tho, I'm 5 years in as a trans man and I'm not giving up now because some felon is taking office. I will die from a hate crime before I give up

Its not fair man

Why do we have to hide. This feels dystopian. What if i cant get gender affirming care when im older, what if i cant be married, what if i cant find housing or a job, what if i just get straight up shot for being trans??

sighh. i do wonder if we will ever have a female president

11.4.2024

ok i hate everybody cuz screw my dad for being mad and yelling at me for having anxiety. now im mad and everything sucks

ive been doing this therapy for like 3 hours every day. and 4 hours on thursdays. and you have the nerve to tell me im not trying to get better???? fuck off

Im giving up everything right now. im not in school and i dont have any time to myself. those were the only two things that made me not want to kill myself!!!!!!!!

i hate i hate i hate i hate i hate everybody and everyone cuz everyone just wants to see me fail i hope u alld ie

Surrounded by faggots bru thats my problem. im surrounded by faggots

Im mad ughhhh i hateit here even when i try nobody gaf and just wants to push me back down

10.29.2024

i went to school for the first time in 25 days

i saw faces i havent seen in fucking agesssss dude, it was weird

only for 50 minutes tho. and then it was over again. i had to do testing the entire day so i missed therapy too, my mom rescheduled it

i cant wait to go back today was the best day ever!!!!!!!!!!!!

10.28.2024

therapy for 4 hours whos excited (sigh)

Dont have much to update on uhhhhh I took an antihistamine and it made me unable to sleep like alllll night. it totally sucked. and my cough didnt even go away bru HELP

my mom said she'd take me to the doctor for this cough bc it hasnt gone away, but she did not. so. guess im dying bye guys its joever...

Ok bye therapy time adiossss

10.26.2024

ngl being mentally ill is kinda ass, why do so many people on twitter freak with it.

Like this is gay as hell. what do you mean I have compulsive violent tendencies that take all my strength to control. wdym I will always ruin my relationships with other people bc im acting schizo. wdym i can go months genuinely believing people are trying to kill me. wdym I sometimes wake up and decided I should kill myself so I can return to my godly form?

which drugs will cure me, gen q.

I take ym lithiummmmmm i feel like kurt cobainnnnnnnnn

10.24.2024

happy thursday its ym favouriet day ever :3

im joyous and whimsical I LOVE THURSDAYS!!!!!

I like my homebound teacher but she talks a lot and i like. never get a chance to respond lolz

Kinda bored today might start watching a new anime

10.20.2024

My parents are always fighting

I thought maybe they would stop for my sake since Im obviously going thru it. being hospitalised and all. but I guess not !!!

I want to be away from everything I want to disapear I hate it here. my mom came in to apologise for all the yelling and then they went right back to yelling

If I was in school, I could just go to sleep and wake up with my backpack ready to escape. But im not. I have to sit in this fucking house with my arguing parents for the next 2-4 weeks

I dont wanna leave my room i want them both to shut up

10.17.2024

homebound teacher here today

I have a test today but we cant even do it cuz i need the paper portion, so she's gonna get it for me yippee

Since thats the case, im just gonna do my Spanish and English today n call it done

I miss school I dont like being home,, i wanna go back to school waaaaah

I might make some updates to the site bc im really bored. I wanna make more shrines. Ive wanted to make an MLP shrine for a while now, and I kinda wanna do a pjsk shrine (for my dear favs)

I like this lady she's fun

10.11.2024

hey guys

I was hospitalised for a week, who cheered

I am bipolar. yaaay. By all technicality its a "other persistent mood disorder" but lets be so fr. Its because im a minor lawl

I just got out and I genuinely already want to die again, I was doing just fine when I was in there and now I hate being alive again

Everyone in there was fucking schizo so i didnt feel out of place honestly, and just so sweet in general. Not the nurses tho I hope they all drop dead

psych ward staff I hope you all fucking die the next time theres a code black. I hope you start seizing and someone walks to help you the same way you did to her. I hope you get laced and are mocked by the people who are supposed to be saving you

Also Highschool Killer ate our fucking markers.

10.4.2024

i dont know what to do

I give up i give up i give up nobody wants to help me.what is wrong with me

I tried sitting with my friends again this morning and i had to leave because i was genuinely considering killing one of them. I want to go home I want to die im gonna kill myself before i kill any of them

i am going home tonight and I am taking every pill I can get my hands on, im saving everyone before ihurt them i cant do this anymore

please someone save me

10.2.2024

No longer sick, just got power back this morning yayyy

Currently at school, we had late arrival due to the hurricane. Basically started the school day at 10:45, honestly we should do this every day it was fire

Also someone tell neocities to never change the code editor theme again because what the fuck is this??

9.30.2024

Still sick. My area got hit with ahurricane so I also have no power. Havent had any since Thursday

Im updating using my phone data, bc our internet is out, so yea. Uhhh Ive never dreaded the night so much. It gets so dark and so fucking hot outside its horrible. I slept shirtless last night bc of how bad it was

Even still, those brits need to chill out about their heatwaves bc its really not that bad during the day, even at 75+ degrees

idk when im getting power back, my Abuela has power and she literally lives across the street from me. So idk why we havent gotten ours yet. Also a bunch of our trees were uprooted and came down, one crushed our deck

No more deck!

9.26.2024

Goodbye the world wants me to kms

My gf invited me somewhere on saturday but my stupid baka self got sick. I think its just a cold but I fear I may still be sick by Saturday.....

Im at school rn, i came bc i wanted 2 see her and do my spanish pres, but my teacher changed the date to Monday so now i dont even have to freaking do it. SO IM HERE FOR NAUGHT!!!!!!

Throat hurt stomach hurt eyes hurt head hurt and i have chills. this is the end. gootbye world gootbye anchorgutz

9.24.2024

she desrves the whole world idk why everything is so horrible

I wanted to get her something this morning but my stupid fucking sister was still asleep by the time we needed to be out of the house

I just wanted to do something nice for her because shes had a really long week and my sister has to ruin it by being a bitch

Im so happy i got to see my gf today i lvoe her so much she genuinely means everything to me

I dont wanna be apart from her ever again that was fucking hellish

9.23.2024

imiss my girlfriend eveyrthing fucking sucks

im gonna slit or something so i get sent to the hospital i dont want to be home and i dont want to be at school

Ill do anything im tireddddd

i hope my leg gets infected and i fucking die

UPDATE GIRLFIRNED BACK NEVER KYS BRO

9.20.2024

guys. ok i feel much better today I think. Im still worried of course but im surviving yk

I selfish for being so distraught but idk im just worried yk. Is that right of me

Also I have like so much energy, and with the current stuff its all just been going into negative behaviour. Im trying to do much better at being nice even when im really stressed so ill probably ask my friends how im doing with that. bc it is something I genuinely want to do better at since I know im a dick when im scared or anxious

Also big big big shoutout to Partakingintomfoolery for just being the sweetest kid on the whole planet :((( He found out I was feeling down and drew this for me LOV U MAN UR LIKE MY LITTLE BROTHERRR <3

9.19.2024

jesus christ man i havent cried at school since like 6th grade

Im so pathetic dude

Every little thing is making me hurt

I just want to go home I cant be here right now, its not good for me

I cant even remember the last time I cried in front of my friends oh my god. im jsut worried and idk how i feel and everything is going wrong

I cried myself to sleep last night, i forgot to charge my comp so now its at like 20 percent. I might uber home bc i catn fucking drive

I keep having dreams and just making up conversations in my head

I literally sound fucking insane

9.18.2024

physically sick from worry

Im almost jealous, it feels evil of me to be so

i dont want ehr to hate me anymoer please please please lpease pleasde

I geniukenly cant do this i dont know what to do i need to get out of here

i wannadie im tired i cant tsop crying im literally in fucking class

waht the hell is wrong with me right now

9.17.2024

pleaseodnt let it be 72 horus please

everything is falling apart around me i diot know what to do

they wont take him to school she cant go to school hes under all this pressure idk waht to do

Im in class genuienyl about to cry i cnat i cant do this i cant i am losing everyone

i imss her so much pleaes dont hate me anymore i dont know what i did but im sorry i jsut want you to bse okay

9.16.2024

I am so tired

Please just leave him out of whatever the hell you have going on because he hasnt even been speaking to us

I dont know what you want me to do I cant help you when you dont want me to

I feel so physically sick I think Im going to vomit

9.13.2024

my girlfriend asked me to be her escort for homecoming goodbye i am so happy.

i wasnt even rlly thinking about homecoming tbh, its not like, that important to me. but im just super happpy she asked :3

Im just a big fan of my girlfriend guys i love him. UGH!!!!!

Anyway i downlaoded macromedia flash 8 and now im making a flash game in the year of our lord 2024

Will be uploaded here via the Ruffle emulator soon enough!!!!!

9.11.2024

Its 9/11, and like ive said before, I think its worth being respective towards those who lost their lives in the attacks AND to all those who were affected by it in any way

Which honestly, atp, everyone was affected. The amount of xenophobia and racism that arose from the attacks is still very sad to me. Not only did so many people have to die, but so many more had to be treated like they werent worth living. So yea i just think its important to respect every aspect of the attacks

I fuck with 9/11 jokes or whatever, i find them funny, but ofc if ur american just take some time to think :3

Also both my parents where like. literally at 9/11. My mom was a teacher in the area and my dad was on site. So with that in mind I think its obvious why I tend to care more about this than other furfags on the internet,, but yea thats all i got uhhh no other updates bc life has been treating me well

9.9.2024

I have 1 more friend bc we made up yayyayyy!!! Im still like kinda on the fence but im like? idk i dont feel much of anything rn. I feel kinda weird about everyone but i dont think they hate me or are mad at me. and ive been finally able to sleep/get tired for the first time in 4 weeks

So generally i think we're coming out of this just fine. Also i did some websurfing and found a lot of old lamezone content thats been practically wiped from the internet, very fun!! I hope to add it to the lamezone shrine soon

Also the fucking lamezone wiki got wiped who did this i hope u die

9.6.2024

i have 1 less friend but i dont feel bad abt it tbh cuz im not gonna stay friends with someone who makes fun of my mental health behind my back

Anyway other than that life is good. got my phone taken away but i jailbroke into my old iphone SE gen1 so i have that thing now. its like an ipod with discord ig

Neither of the 2 people i trust with my life rn are at school which is lame. but its okay. my gf is sick and my bsf cordless is also sick. LAME!!!!!!!!!!

so its just me at school and i just feel very alone. i havent sat with my friends in the morning for 2 days because i dont trust that they will ever be on my side again

So basically i havent had real face-to-face human interaction with people outside of my immediate family in 2 days. call me chronically online but yea i already knew that LMAO

anyway if you have questions abt how im doing, ask me instead of getting it second hand >_< because I dont like being talked about unless someone has checked with me about it first. Also dont ask my gf bc it tends to stress her out so just like. yea literally just ask me HELP

Also im going to the mountains but my phone is taken so i have to hide my burner for like 2 days, pray w me

9.5.2024

im so scared

i lvoe my friends so much i dont know what im doing

my mom said im pushing them away and my dad said maybe they do hate me

I know they were trying ot help, rationally i know that, but its not helping its jsut making it worse

Im shaking like genuinely shaking and i can hardly breathe and i cant even drink water

i just want them to love me again i dont know what to do i cant fix this i cant im just tired and scared and i dont know what i want

9.3.2024

I am so sick of everyone

i tried being nicer and it just doesnt work, it doesnt. everyone will hate me no matter what and they will follow their fucking ringleader the whole way down

So im tired of it all and nothing is working in my favour so i dont see why i should have to be good to anyone. its not like i owe them anything to begin with

Im so mad why was everyone being nice to me all they do is lie

Im still a god i dont need to entertain any of this i could destroy everything

8.29.2024

hi guys....

im not gonna sugarcoat this and act like im feeling better when im not, so lets just leave it at that

I havent been able to sleep well at all, but i dont feel tired. I kept waking up every 2 hours last night and i cried for 2 hours without even knowing what i was crying about

My girlfriend wasnt here this morning because of therapy, but ill be able to see her later so thats nice :3 She might be sick tho so i hope she feels better. Speaking of which I have a doctors appointment tomorrow at 10:05 so I might not even be able to go to school :( I really hate missing school I dont want to miss anything hhhh

Long weekend tho!! Maybe will be able to hangout with my gf if shes feeling well. Id rather her rest over the weekend then have her be sick and out of school (even tho im very sure she would prefer that.)

Im trying to be nicer when im in a bad mood still. I was really hurt yesterday morning by things my friends said (though I know they didnt mean anything by it) and I know I wouldve yelled at them if i said anything in the moment so i just waited a bit until i got to class

I just think maybe if im nicer they will change their plan

8.26.2024

FUCK ALL OF YOU I NEVER ACTUALLY WAS SORRY I HOPE THAT FAGGOT STILL DIES I DONT EVEN GIVE A FUCK ANYMORE

THEYRE TRYING TO REPLACE ME THEY DONT EVEN KNOW HOW FUCKING IMPORTANT I AM I HATE THEM ALL

NOBODY RESPECTS ME I DESERVE RESPECT I AM SUPPOSED TO BE ADORED. YOURE NOTHING WITHOUT ME ACTUALLY FUCKING NOTHING

Im gonna lsoe my god damn mind over this oh my god. Im god and they are like the antichrist they are trying to dethrone me

I am special i am important i deserve to be loved by everyone always

nobody takes me seriously im so sick of them all

8.24.2024

today was good

I went to comic con and met a Len cosplayer. Lots of people complimented my ears and tail that I made. I bought paws. very nice, theyre very soft

Yesterday I spoke to my ex for the first time in maybe a month or two. Id like to think weve finally been able to end on good terms. idk, at least thats how i felt

I miss my girlfriend i dont want to be alone anymore. I dont want anyone else here I just want her. its selfish and probably weird but i just want everyone out of the way right now

today was good but my mood is now bad. I cried earlier because i will never be a real boy and i just wished there was someone who would be there for me

I ate too much today my fucking thighs are going to get bigger and im gonna look like even more of a girl

8.23.2024

This website is my space to vent my feelings and express myself during episodes where I do not want to get others involved. Ive made the shift from actively hurting people who I love to deciding to post on here to get my feelings under control

If i do not like you, i will say it here. Quite frankly, if i dont like you, you shouldnt even know this site exists. Its not like im hosting my blog on fucking twitter.

I will never be sorry for anything I say on here unless I look back on it and realise by my own volition that it was wrong/my opinion has changed

If you are SHOWING my vent posts, which i choose to keep here away from the eyes of the person I am venting about, to that person: thats not my fault. If they find it on their own, yes i will apologise and work something out. But im not going to apologise because someone went out of their way to hurt you with my thoughts

Genuinely angry over this bc this is my space and i reserve the right to use it how i please

8.16.2024

Ive officially made the switch to Firefox!!

I felt that as time goes on, Chrome won't be a morally safe place for my data to rest :,) In all honestly, privacy is not my main concern, but I would prefer using a browser that does not actively support web3,,

So yeea, i switched :3 I used to use Firefox when I was younger anyway, so its much more nostalgic imo. Already having fun customising my browser lolz

8.15.2024

50k views,, wowowow,,,

If you had told me in 2022 that my shitty little website would be able to garner 50k+ views and 26 whole followers, jesus christ i would not have believed you

I appreciate everyone so much, as this website has been my outlet for almost 3 years now. Thank you all for sticking around, even if youre new around here :3

I truly am just. so grateful for everyone TnT i love all my followers and everyone whos ever clicked on this site thinking, "I wonder whats behind that link"

not to be cringe, but even though im the webmaster, you guys are the glue holding this site together and giving me motivation :3

ok off my cringe grind, you guys are great, i appreciate the support so much, thank you!!

8.12.2024

Hi guys im not pissed off at everytone anymore!!!!!

My computer is abt to die tho errr i didnt charge it. ill plug it in at lunch maybe idfk

I finished another minicomic which ill probably upload to ComicFury, bc i think im gonna start using that to host the Furtoon comics? but idk.

I need to start bringing my comic binder 2 school again so i can update in class,,,, cuz i alwayz did my comics in class cuz it helped me come up with ideas :3

Anyway my ear hurts and my stomach hurts never eating again waaaaaah

8.9.2024

Im so pissed off at everyone right now

I hate this stupid bitch who sits at our table. I fucking hate them. i fucking hate this bitch so much. Stay away from me pleaaaaase. You dont even know my name so just dont talk to me just stay away from me

Theyre trying to take her away from me omfg i hate them i hate them so much

choke please just choke

8.7.2024

WE ARE HERE!!

half my day is free bc i have online college courses with dont start until the 19th, so im just sitting at lunch with all my friends the whole day!!

So far my fav teacher is my gov teacher since she seems really sweet :3

Might update more tmr but for not i dont have much to do LMAO

8.6.2024

MAN FUCJ KILLLING MYSELF SCHOOOL STARTS TMR!!!!!!

IM SO EXCITED RAAGHHHHH I LOVE SCHOOOL!!!!!! school gives me something to do godddd i need this so bad.

Summer got me suicidal asf and it almost took me 2 days ago im ngl. Im fine but,, yea.

I HAVE LUNCH SECOND SEM WITH MY GF AND FIRST SEM WITH MY FRIEND ARBIE!!!!! And my bee eff eff cordless is in my prob and stats class!!!!!!!!!!!

If any of my teachers r mean im kms btw bc this is all i have left LMAO joshin btw i will not kms ill just get tf over it

7.28.2024

living got me feelin a little suicidal rn not gonna lieee

Suicide has never been more than a passing thought in my mind, but last night I genuinely considered overdosing with whatever pills we had in the cabinet

Nobody cares about me. Nobody knows me. Nobody treats me as though im conscious

Ive said this so many times i dont understand why my family ignores it. a card means more to me than any gift ever will. a card is confirmation that you care about me personally

i just dontknow what to do anymore i cant go on

I just want to get out of here

7.23.2024

oh my god being alive might be one of the worst things god has ever put me through

nobody loves me the same amount that I love them and its gut wrenching

I relapsed last night and honestly i dont think anyone would give a fuck if i just died

I wasnt supposed to make it to highschool i enever thought i was gonna get this far, i dont know what to do

I genuinely thought I would be dead before freshman year

7.17.2024

ITS MY BIRTHDAYYYY

IM 17 RAGHHHHG

I’m updating from my phone bc I’m at the beach and don’t have my pc. So the About Me section won’t be updated until Sunday. But YA I’m excited I’ll update again when I get home bc doinf this on my notes app is tedious

7.10.2024

7 days until my birthday :333 m excited lalallaa

I miss my girlfriend i love herrrrrr :3 im so tired rn sigh

Im watching a ton of analog horror stuff rn bc im bored and it makes no sense to me, so i have to put all my energy into trying to understand it

7.7.2024

Havent slept at home for 2 days now, woooof,,

I hung out with my best friend and my girlfriend (consecutively, not at the same time) over the past 2 days lalallaa i had so much fun :3

I GO TO THE BEACH NEXT WEEK TOO IM SO EXCITED RAGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! 4 days of cros country and then im BEACHBOUND!!

7.4.2024

happy anniversary

i used to really love fireworks

7.2.2024

just went on 4chan for the first time in a while. seldom go on there bc its so freakish and i fear being doxxed just by opening the site

was reminded of why i never go on there LMAOO

Anyway im bored and i feel like making art, but not in my traditional sense, I think im gonna make a video

7.1.2024

TRANZINE IS OUT!! im very excited because this is the first zine ive ever contributed to!!! You can check it out HERE!!

My dear Crowbar is gonna go see the world.. m so proud of her.. they grow up so fast :3

6.27.2024

house is being repainted,, im not happy. We also got a new couch. Replaced the one that we've had since before i was born. I hate this

The couch isnt even bad, its relaly nice, i refuse to sit on it yet tho

I hate change. I keep complaining abt this in my server and ik everyone probably thinks im being a pussy. But its called autism, fag. im gonna get stressed out over menial changes

recently ive been struggling with tone more too and its making me feel stupid

Everyone gets the joke but me

6.19.2024

supposed to get a haircut today but my mom hasnt come to pick me up yet

Guess ill just fucking die then :/

6.15.2024

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BROTHER FINN :333

Evyerone cheer everyone say yaaaay happy birthday!!!!!!!

anyway probably gonna go out today with my dad. even tho its super hot. might die. gootbye everyone

6.13.2024

feelin real hateful as of late

not towards anyone else,, jsut 2 myself :P

blah blah blah girl playing dressup blah blah blah weight blah blah blah cutting blah blah blah

ill probably get over it in a month

6.11.2024

I feel bad, and for once in my selfish fucking life its not for myself

I love my girlfriend so much i just want everything to be perfect for her its so unfair

man

I wish i knew how to help

6.8.2024

HOLYYYY SHIT GUYS. YOU HAVE NO IDEA. HOW HAPPY I AM.

I wanted to update yesterday with this but i was so incredibly tired so sorry, but LOOKLOOKLOOK

Signals made this absolutely amazing art for the birthday of anchorgutz :33 IM LITERALLY SO HAPPY YOUHAVE NO IDEA.

words cant express my joy u have no idea. hgjskgh GUYS!!!!!!!! its so awesome im gonna lose my marbles PLS check out Signals on tumblr and signalings.net (linked aboveeee :3)

6.6.2024

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANCHORGUTZ!!!

Its been a full 2 years with the site now, and im proud of how far its come since its humble beginnings in 2022 :3

Thank you to everyone following and keeping up with the site, youre all the sweetest, some of your sites even inspire me to update and add to my own!!

On another note, I got into a fight with my friends last night and I said some mean shit. I dont feel bad, I usually dont feel bad, but I recognise it was wrong so I apologised. Im trying to get better at that: apologising even when I dont feel bad

I struggle with low empathy and im not good at seeing other's povs, so Im trying to sort of train myself to do better. Be more social acceptable, if you will

Anyway yea HAPPY 2 YEARS TO ANCHORGUTZ!!! Lets hope for many more good years to come :DD

6.3.2024

Happy pride month all :3 forgot to update earlier whoops

Very excited because theres a Kindou sermon coming up!! All about pride and sharing heritage and such, so im super excited to stream it (and possibly participate if im able)

If anyones interested in checking out the server, with actual info on the sermon, its linked on the Kindou shrine page :3

Anyway ive been addicted to bee swarm simulator and royale high as of late. this might be gods way of telling me im fucking doomed LMAO

5.31.2024

I love my girlfriend soooo much :33 I get to see her today im so excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

5.29.2024

I GET TO SEE MY GF ON FRIDAY YAAAAAY IM SO EXCITEDDDDD

on another note, ive been super bored as of late. Havent gotten properly dressed in 2 days (in pyjamas rn)

Since its summer, i feel as though i have no REAL reason to not get updates out consistently on my comics, so i do want to try and work on that stuff. Its just a little difficult bc my motivation is absolutely in the dumps

Ive been losing a lot of weight recently too so idk whats up with that

guess im dying bye guys!

5.27.2024

im worried about my gf, i love herrr

hhhh anyway yea sorry for not updating. Ive been like. not busy? just bored as hell

Ive been playing royale high a lot and trying to level up, since my gf rlly likes the game and I wanna be able to play it with her :3

So ya lalala thats what im doing!!! also i have cancerous art block rn

5.23.2024

I AM GOING TO FUCKING THROW UP

IVE BEEN TAKINGMY MEDS WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME I HATE EVERYEINEN I THATE IT ALLWHY DO I NEVER GET BETTERRRRRRR

IHATETHIS I HATE IT I HATW I HRITHWHTJHAJTK FUKCFUKCFUCKFUCK FUCK UFKCUFUCK FUCK

IM GOING TO GO MENTAL TGERYE ALL AVOIDING ME I KNOWIT THEYRE ONLY TALKING TO ME OUT OF PITY BC THEY NEED SOMETHING FROM ME FUUUCKUKUUHFKJD

I cant trust anyone why do they hate me i just want them to love me back

i eidh i ihjhgk i hate myself dude im just making everyoens lives harder hwyyyyy its only the first day of summer and im alfeady fucked up in the head

can you tell i fell out of littlespace

5.22.2024

hichat i have 3 exams today (im updatinginstead of doing my edxams)

I am little rn bee tee double you but ts okay cuz im surviving

I want to go on the swing and colour and d o stickers and hug ym girlfriend

bye bye chat love u guys

5.20.2024

hi chat i schizoposted on twitter last night and it was so fun

i need to draw more i feel like death and ive been doing literally nothing UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sChool is almost over so ill be back on my mentally ill summer grind heh

Who is ready for hot girl summer.......... i know i am....... (im the hot girl)

5.17.2024

HAI CHAT!

heh im not in my class cuz im just so evil and bad and evil

yep... im just bad like that...

say hi girlfriend: h-hewwo... im weally... s-shy... >///<... um... s-so many... p-people...

wow! she is never allowed tto type here again.

5.14.2024

shit

idk what im doing dude

i probably fucked up

dont know i dontknow

Icant do this anymore man im either extremely happy or extremely fucked and theres no inbetween

whendo i get a break from this

5.9.2024

hey chat sorry for bieng mental on main heh.

Im normal now trust (im fihting my demons with everything i am. I need to be a ncier person.)

its rlly stormy where i live and im suuuper joyous abt it :3 however i have AP testing today erm good luck 2 me

wanna ask my gf to sleepover on friday but i am scared so idk if iw ill :P

I miss her sm i havent seen her since last friday wghreghghgjsfd

5.8.2024

I want to delete everything and just disappear forever for her sake but i know its just oging to stress her out even more

im trying to tkae my meds everyday im trying to do better

Iwas doing fine for so long what happened

New rule: no venting in the server or to anyone when manic and insane. id rather just kill myself over it than stress anybody out

If i have a psychotic disorder im just killing myself because i dont want to take lithium

5.7.2024

why am i always in a bad mood and im always mean toeveryone for no reason

andlike i dont care just go die i dont even care

everyone pisses me off so bad i shouldjsut kill myself dude theres nothing for me to live for and imjust ruining everyones lives because IM having a bad time

and i make it everyone elses problem and its so awful of me why do i do that

I want everyone dead i hate everybody and even when im supposed to be having fun i find a way to ruin it

School is ending soon and im supposed to be excited to see my girlfriend but instad im being a dick and ranting about my family

If i wasnt so scared of dying i woudlve done it by now because i dont have any reason to want to continue on at this point because i hate everyone and everyone hates me and i deserve it and i dont care

why was i mean to her dude she means the world to me why the fuuuuckwdid i do that for jesus christ

am i abusive i dont even think its healthy for her to be around me man this isnt good for her

I needto fix myself i refuse to ruin this for her

5.2.2024

I am in Georgia

heh

Ok i got 2 take a shower or wahtever bc my parents HATE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ugh....

Also i got Legend of Everfree in like 1080p it looks SO FGOOD. god. i love that movie sm.

5.2.2024

My dad and my sister want to get a new dog

Lilly can never be replaced. I don't want a new dog

Worse, my dad and my sister want a german shepherd. There's absolutely no way we can care properly for a german shepherd. My sister and I are at school until 3:45 and my parents typically get home around 6.

Its just not healthy for the dog, yknow?? And honestly. I feel like Im not gonna connect with this dog. I feel like im gonna be mean to it

I dunno. I just really dont want a new dog. Im just gonna finish ddao and try and convince my family to hold out on a new pet

5.1.2024

I still feel like shit, but less in the manner of "everyone else is the problem and I should kill myself to escape them" but moreso "I am the problem and I should kill myself to save them"

Im just such a terrible person and im infecting everyone around me

I feel like i get annoyed by everything that people do and im just so mean

I should just slit in the bathtub i dont even think ill ever amount to anythinh

4.30.2024

Love everyone sorry im nto doing well

Im bored and i really dont wanna do my programming work because nothing is working. I dont wanna talk to anyone but my gf

Im not gonna do a full redesign, but im gonna try and implement more pages that I just dont have links to.

I wish i was home so i could lock myself in my room

4.29.2024

I hate having friends its so much work

I wish my site was still like it was in 2022 or whenver i made this shit. I didnt tell any of my friends about it and i could rant and vent here all i want without them ever having to know it was me behind the screen. But now i have to "be nice" or some shit i dunno

I am actively ruining the only good thing I have going for me and I dont know if I care or not

I hate knowing they can function without me because I should be the center of everyones attention no matter what. But at the same time Ill lose my shit if youre nice to me right now because i dont believe you. youre lying to me and I want you dead dont lead me on by pretending you actually care about me and see me as an equal

All my friends hate me so i hate them too. i dont want to be surrounded by people anymore i want to disapear forever and just die

the work in question, by the way, is being a normal human being and having empathy for those who I care about. god forbid!

but at the same time i am so terrified of losing her even though I know im doing this to myself. sheprobably hates me and shes probably lying to me too and I dont wanna live lik this anymoere

Why does everyone hate me whyare they all talking about me i cant do this its so unfairfuckfuck fuck fuck my dad is home i think im gonna lose it

I need to cut them off ebefore they all turn on me i cant do this

4.28.2024

Ohmy god id leave that stupid server if my rles didnt mean the world to me

i need my power its the olny thing keeping me afloat

can my stupid friends just diealready im tired of having to deal with people

they didnt evendo anything i just want out i want out i hate you all i hateoyu>

4.27.2024

Everyone hates me so i want them all dead

youdont have the right to dislike me ihate you all too i ahte you i hate you i hate you

Nobody talk to me or ill slit my wristsand send you pictures

I haetthem i hate them get away from themo h my god

Youre supposed to like me not them

this is so stupid

4.26.2024

Community service after school

hanging ou with girlfrind

I am tired I want her to slepe over but idk if my parents will let her/if she wants to

maybe ill ask or just wait until she sees this

4.25.2024

I have a discord server now if anyone wants 2 join.... heh...

itz linked on the homepage :3 but ill put it here too jus in case lala

click 4 server!!

4.23.2024

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY GIRLFRIEND BERK LALALALA

You guys should chek out her super awesome website :3

I want to eat a person

4.20.2024

JESUS ITS BEEN 12 DAYS. ANYWAY. I had junior prom on the 13th!! Went with my gf lalala :3

I was granted executive permission to post these (I asked nicely) so here's prom pix !!

I also went w/ my friends Tommy n Ava, I just chose pix without them cuz I forogr to ask if I could post them

4.8.2024

IMBSC+CJ IN SCHOOL!!!

Im so hapy cuz i missed everyone so bad lalala

i get t see my super awesome sauce girlfriend!!!!! and theres a solar eclipse today so im being dismissed FUCK YEA

Anyway my tummy hurts bye bye

3.31.2024

easter

anyway im bored lalallalalalalallalalalalala okay bye chat

3.28.2024

Im alive chat lalalal im gonna see Tommyinnit's how to become a millionaire tour tonite in Atlanta :3

Ill update tmr on how it goes!!!!

3.27.2024

Uhhhh my school is on hold? which means basically we cant leave our classroom or anything. So i SHOULD be in programming rn but instead im still in my world mytho class.

Rumours were that the Lowes across the street got robbed, but my friend works there, and he says it didnt after talking to his manager. Sooooo no idea whats going on but we cant leave ig!

I kinda like missing class and just doing nothing, tbh, its awesome. Im just sitting in here on my computer doing nothing :3

Anyway ill update tmr to let u know im not dead, byeee

3.26.2024

Everything hurts and i feel mental

Ijust want the best for my friends cuz i lvoe them a lot but ifeel like i cant be around them right now

like uhghughuhufhdhsg i deleted discord bc i feel like if i stayed on the app any longer, i wouldve deleted the entire server instead. And they would hate me for that. so idk uhghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh wish my brain wasnt weird

I took my meds and now my stomach hurts i think everything is bad. I miss my girlfriend but i feel like shit because I know i stressed her out yesterday and i just feel so bad. I neverwant her to feel stressed or worried cuz of me jesus why dnt i think before i say shit>????

3.24.2024

gave my therapist my website (hi!)

do not fear! My posts wont become any less deluded! anyway I have a patreon now pls give me money i want your money GIVE ME YOUR MONEY!!!!!!!!!

My tummy hurts I am dying of death.... this is my final message... gootbye world...

3.20.2024

Home alone

Gonna be home alone for the next few hours, trying not to be bored and lazy

5oz ughhhhhhhh ok my tummy hurts. gonna watch youtube and maybe play undertale

3.18.2024

YESTERDAY WAS MY FRIEND PIAN'S BIRTHDAYYY Shes 14 now everyne say happy birthday :33

Sorry for not updating in fucking ages im just very busy,, im doing stuff for programming n shit. And im trying to get a lot of art projects done atm. its this whole thing

Anwyay im busy might update later if i can

3.7.2024

Guys i have so much to do and i dont wanna do any of it. Like as im writing this i should be doing a psychoanalysis on Riley from fuckin Inside Out. But no. Im being a nerd and updating my nerdsite instead.

on the bright side, there was a call for webdesign work in my programming class and I get to do it!!!!!!!! Im literally so hyped u have actually no idea. We primarily do circuit python in that class (I do not know any circuit python. I only know how to make shapes n shit.) so when he said "web design" I PERKED UP SO FAST BRO. I was paying zero attention until he said that. Suddenly im rlly fuckin invested

Basically we're making mario kart but irl with robots bc our class hates us and wants us to suffer in code hell. So honestly my plan is so make the site cyuute and force the other kid who volunteered to do all the update work cuz. Man. I got enough on my plate. Im here for the html not for the javascript, thats gay

Also I saw the EMDR therapist for the first time like last week prob. kinda freaked up my weekend. Made me cry. Ill indulge you guys with that story tmr bc this post is already too long and i want to watch youtube

3.6.2024

Im a #wombhater

Anyway I have a screenplay project for world mytho and im prob just gonna write some weird finnotomy shit. lowkey. Or maybe something Crowbar related idk!

Also its raining outside and im joyous cuz i love the rain AND my dad got me a sparkling ice drink and i am absolutely living it up rn. JOY TO THE WORLD!!!!!!!!

Okay bye fags i have nothing to report on today.

3.5.2024

ligma

Ligma BALLS! 🛵

I have a presentation today PROBABLY in prog and i rly dont wanna do it. ugh. Also FSR is meant to update tmr and I havent even finished the one panel I decided to work on (I started yesterday.) So hhh guess we'll see what happens, cuz I wanna try updating consistently again :3

ALSO BERK IS BACK AT SCHOOL FUCK YEA WOOOOO IM SO HAPPY :333

3.1.2024

I miss my gf havent seen hr in like 6 days. almost a WEEK!!! tf. I hate her i hope she dies eye are ell.

She sucks and should die from mono or wahtever she has. UGH!!!

Shes so fake I MSIS HER PLS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UGH.

And my freaking tummy hurts

2.29.2024

ITS LEAP YEAR!!!!!!!!!!

Leap year is so cool 2 me tbh, but its also so weird. Idk! I like it its cool. I knew a kid with a birthday on the 29th, and they just let him choose a random date to be his birthday for most of the year. Happy birthday to that kid!! Dont remember his name but he was chill iirc :3

We're looking at Asian mythology in my world mytho class now, also my stomach hurts so fucking bad :,) Also we have to write a scary story and I still havent done that so im gonna get on that, byeee

2.28.2024

I MISS BERK I HATE EVERYTHING!!!!!! She's sick rn and i am so very sad and lonely UGH!!!

Berk feel better soon love u.

I don want her to come to school if shes really really really sick but UGH!!!!!!! im grrrrrr

I just feel very stressed out idk (unrelated.i just am>????) I feel very clingy right now ugh this is so gay and faggy and gay.

Berk feel better soon

2.20.2024

Get to hangout with best friend whom i am dating today. we r gonna watch adventrue time and do work!!!!!!!

SOCIETY IS GREAT!!!!!

i am regressig

2.19.2024

the way i didnt do any of the shit i said i was gonna do when i got home.

Also its president's day so i shoudlny even be here its literally a holiday. why does joe biden want me to kill myslef????????

In all seriousness, i'm being enrolled in EMDR therepy so thats fun. If i get boring, you know why :/ uhghhhhh dude i dont even know what i can tell her, when i do start seeing her, because i was reading the paperwork and shes legally required to report self harm and sexual exploitation/abuse. Like MAN i just want u to cure me. u dont gotta tell my parents all the lore while ur at it.

idk. im worried. we've been trying to get an appointment with her for almost a year now, so, this shit better work or im not gonna be happy

2.15.2024

Tummy hurts might just freaking die. I had the option to skip school with my aunt, but i chose not to bc i hate missing AP psych. Cuz what if i miss osmeting important and then i just die??

And im trying not to turn anything in late this year, so being absent is just gonna fuck that up. My whole family got sick recently, and tbh i think the only reason i made it out alive was sheer willpower to continue going to school

Anyway uhh i have nothing 2 do bc my 3d print is done, i just have to fortify it when i get home and sand it down a bit. Not too big of a deal, really. I dont have a lot else going on today so I kinda wish I skipped. Maybe tmr!!

2.14.2024

Happy valentines day!!!!!!!!!!! IM SO HAPPY I JUST WANNA STIM MYSELF TO DEATH

Berg got me these 2 cats and theyre so soft i love them theyre sitting on my desk rn :333 and he got me these like chocolate stick things that r SO GOOD. the last time i had these things was like 2016 dude. and i stole them from my mom.

ADNTHE CARD WAS LIKE THE SWEETEST THING EEVR HFDGJEFKJHGUE UGH. UEGHFS i HATE berk i want her to fucking die.

I got her chocolates and a miku figure and a ringpop and a card with Banica drawn on it.!!!! i dont usually even pay attention to valentines day, tody is rlly good tho YIPPEE

2.13.2024

soooooo freaking deluded. sooooo freaking cute abt it tho

I got a 90 and a 93 on my two psych tests YIPPE!!!!! Im a genius guys literally a child prodigy...

uhhh ok tmr is valentines day or something gay like that. I need to go to the store and get something bc im a real one.. Ugh i hate getting gifts bc what if they dont like it bro. what if my gift sucks ASS!!

We live in a flippin society guys. a FLIPPIN society. BUt also I get free food tonite with my friend so that fucks

Ok i have nothing left to say (theresnothing left to saaaaayyy [thats the ending song from fionna and cake]) bye

2.12.2024

Its super rainy and foggy and misty today and im rlly happy

I feel very melancholy but in a cute way, I feel a lil fucked up but in a cute way

I have to take notes for psychology, we have a test tomorrow. I know all the stuff but sitting at my desk and doing work makes me feel powerful. So thats why im waiting to do it at home rather than at school. Now im just killing time while listening to Rio Romeo

I updated the WNGO literature on Toyhouse, i cant link it because toyhouse is blocked on my school pc bc god hates me and wants me dead

Its kiiiinda more personal than the other chapters so keep that in mind when reading, if you do, and do NOT skip the warnings.

On an unrelated note, I saw her today. Its nothing jaw dropping, since we go to the same school, but seeing people interact with her like she isnt like. A crazy terrible person. Is just insane to me. Its not their fault they they dont know her, but shit, it just feels weird

I totally miss her tho

2.11.2024

I love my gf :3

2.9.2024

Hey guys. I am currently waiting six hours for Yandere simulator to install. Big game for big boy like me. im so happeh i love kpop. this is berk hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii ^_^ :3 :o

2.5.2024

Theres something so sickeningly sweet about putting a string of words together in your head and writing them down, even if you don't really know what it means

I kind of want to make a new html for some of my writing. I mostly write essays and opinion pieces, but i think it could be fun to post some of my poetry on here, if you guys like that stuff

Im not the biggest fan of poetic analysis myself, as i dont enjoy having to pull apart the seams of someone's work, but I like writing it. I dunno, its weird. I think i turn more towards poetry because its like writing lyrics, but without having to think about the harmonies and melodies n shit.

You think poetry takes a lot of brain power, but it shouldnt, like, it should just be something inate. something you already know but havent found the words for yet. Does that make sense??

I was thinking a lot about this last night, idk, maybe the worms are eating away at my brains

I think ill make the html :3

2.2.2024

ught theres a pep rally today gonna KMS!!!!!!!!!!!

I brought my headphones so i dont die of autism bc id rather just die of cancer. sryt hat is so insensitive wtf. Ive been so mean lately bro i just feel horrendous

Like i vented yestrday and just said i hated everyone and wanted all my friends dead??? like fucking wHAT i love them so much why would i say that??

I didnt mean it, but i hate thining that cuz ugrfhsja i just feel so bad and i say words ugh. i love my fridns i lovoe you guys

1.30.2024

uhhhhhokay. not a lot to update on tbh but ill see what i can do

Been doing a lot of photowork recently. As in, using photos i took to draw/create art with. Its something ive been pretty interested in, honestly, id like to get better at photography to improve the quality of my photos

I take pix just about everytime we go out now, so that i have stuff to use later on. Cuz a few months ago I ran out of photos so I wasnt sure what to do-

I have world mytho homework but lowkey,, im not feeling it. I just dont wanna, if im being so fr.

Itz nothing hard i just dont wanna xP

I posted sum mentally ill art on deviantart and ppl keep asking if im okay. Ya im fine. Dont worry. Its just a vent piece abt some stuff im working thru still. Old stuff, for the most part

I shouldnt have posted it. I hate people knowing that part about me. But at the same time I like that they care

Maybe im just really selfish. is that okay to admit??

1.29.2024

Putting on a puppet show for my class

later tho

we are recreating a taino legend about the bat

dont have much to say, bye

1.25.2024

hey divaaaaa

just arrived at the slaytion

Bout to hotbox the stall and shit on the mothertoilet!

1.24.2024

I deleted another account. I believe in full internet transparency, but if I didnt delete it, i wouldnt be able to start the recovery journey :,)

I feel free now, idk. Im really proud. Like i said, doing a full detox from my phone this weekend, only thing ill do online prob is just play COTL and stream Fionna and Cake for my friends. Im not feeling good and ughhh

My scars have gotten to the point where i can start to see them again. They usually fade away and then come back. urghhhhhh im not ready for this right now. i dont need reminders dude i feel like shit

sooooooooooooo yea thats all i got for today. im not even mad or sad or anxious. I just feel like nothing. Byeee

1.22.2024

I am in a shitty mindset and i am not feeling good. I reinstalled reddit last night just to vent on my burner and now freaks are dming me urgh. fuuuuck hate my life guys I HATE IT ALLLLL

On the bright side. uh. idk i dont actually have anything ermmm. I cant focus and i have to do my world mytho project by tomorrow bc i dont even know when its due, tbh.

Im gonna personalise the slides with my own art, if its cute enough maybe ill post an edited version here (by edited i mean it wont show my deadname)

Anyway I think im gonna do a full detox from my phone this weekend. Not from the internet, bc thats how i talk to my friends on weekends, but just from my phone. And I might make myself regress, and being on my phone when i regress sucks ass

thats all i got for now, love u babes :3

1.18.2024

I MENT TO BRING MY RULER TO SCHOOL TODAY BUT I FORGOT DAMNITTTTT

I have to measure our LED board thing so I can make a casing for it. Maybe. Idk ive never done 3d printing before. sigh :/

Ill have to ask the dude in my class to borrow the LEDs so i can measure it properly. URHGHGHF im so anxious ive never done printing before GOD.

1.17.2024

My ribs hurt so bad urhgurhgush...... Im wearing my binder for the first time in like. A week, actually, cuz the last time I worse it was on the 10th. I havent worn it since bc I wore it for like 6 hours more than I had expected to and it really started to hurt.

I guess ive not fully recovered tho? because jesus christ im hurting really bad. I might just take it off, tbh. I dont have an extra top tho ermmm idk. Maybe ill tough it out just until I get home.

Im NOT feeling like permanent rib damage tho so idk

1.11.2024

I was genuinely so tired last night, i wasnt sure if id actually be able to finish the comic update. But luckily i was able to cram last minute and update at around 10pm!!

Had to update from my phone because I was just so tired,, didnt wanna get up and get my pc just for a few lines of code :,) Anywya hope we fuck with the update, I plan to start working on the next one tonite

1.10.2024

Its my abuela's birthday today so everyone say happy birthday!!!!!

Im actually working on my comic again (bet u forgot abt fsr.. its ok cuz so did i HELP) so expect an update TODAY. THATS RIGHT. IM UPDATING TODAY. WOOO

So excited to get this update out because i feel awful that ive been procrastinating on it for ages. Its mostly filler, if im being so honest, but I just really need to get back into the flow of it. Plus ive gotten most my school work squared away so ive got time

I need 2 make a card for my abuela so thats my priority once i get home, but after that, im hard workin on the last bit of colouring for the next panel. Then im immediately drafting the next update so i dont get behind again. Sorry for the 3 month hiatus, like, genuinely. I hate getting off schedule and i hate keeping people waiting.

Thats abt all i got for 2day, gonna finish my python work and then maybe surf the melonland forum/read crow cillers for a bit. byeee

1.6.2024

sorry the other post ended so abruptly erm i had to shut my computer and I just finished the update today LMAOO i forgot was i was gonna say so I just ended it

ANYWAYYY ITS MY FAV HOLIDAY IM SO HAPPY!!! FELIZ DIA DE LOS REYES MAGOS <33 JHHDJAHUF ITS MY FAV HOLIDAY EVER IM JUST SO HAPPYYYY

Im currently sitting on the couch listening to spotify on the tv, laying in a SUPER SOFT Bluey blanket I got from los tres reyes!!! I also got a MBIKMB canvas poster and a sketchbook :3

My dad wants me to do chores, so im doing my schoolwork instead to buy some time for myself (I dont wanna chore.)

Oki thats all byebye babes love u guys

1.5.2024

guys i didnt overdose we are alive and thriving.

I had 2 do a programming presentation today ughhheh and i had to carry the team. I did all the talking bro it was so scary idec. Okay uhm bye

1.4.2024

bro isteh second day of school and im already tweaking hfcuk help me dude.

LIKE JESSSSUSSSSS MANNNNN my hands r shaking s bad and im like. DUDE. DUUUDE im so fidgety and like like DUDE.

Im not on crack im just very caffinated GHFJEGAD DUDE. 250 MG OF CAFFINE IS IN MY BODY RN IM DYING

I looked it up so imnot like. overdosing.t but im gonna be rlly anxious and have headaches and stomach aches and shitlike that so YEA. IM SO HYPER RN GUYS PLEAJSKHEFGFKJ Bye!!!!!!!!! I have comp programming work to do and imso excited :33

1.3.2024

WOO BACK AT SCHOOL!!! Im in computer programming 2 rn. we arent rlly doing much since its the first day,, so im reading crow cillers in class CUZ THEY UNBLOCKED IT AGAIN!!

It was blocked sometime in november so this is a total fuckin win. Im on a desktop (dell) for comp programming, and this keyboard sucks ass. so y typingmight be supepr bad whn i update from here. Im not used to such a skwewed keyboared- all the letters are on the left side

I havent done python in a while so im lowkey nxious,, but its chill i got it

ok backt o class bye im hungry

1.1.2024

Happy New Years babes :3

Wishing you all the greatest <3

I know this isnt the happiest update I could bring. But im in a bit of a weird mood right now. I mentioned this before, but my dog, Lilly, was pretty sick. We ended up having to put her down on the 29th,, so yea.

I guess im not really thinking about it. In the sense that, im not really processing it properly, but yea. Just thought I should update with that

Here's some pix of her that I took during her last morning with us.