1.20.2025

trump is prezident

i am so excited to detransition and fear for my life for the next 4 years

i am trapped in this godforsaken red hick state because i cant pay for college anywhere else. im so sick of hearing people brag about living in blue states and being safe. fuck you i dont even care, I almost wish you could understand the fear of just leaving my house because you know the whole world is against you

nobody talk to me about going to college out of state, i will slit over it im so srs. Im living my worst nightmare dude, ive been dreaming of leaving south carolina since I was little and now im stuck here even longer bc i dont have money

And its only gonna get worse from here bc trump is gonna hype up all his closeted fag minions against the transgenders and queers

So i dont wanna hear how good your life is cause im gonna be fearing for mine

free palestine, blm, stop asian hate, kill all men, tear down the patriarchy, kill capitalists, be your own government, idfk im going FULL WOKE!!!!

1.17.2025

going to a funeral tomorrow

for my great uncle

I didnt really know him for that long, but I liked him, he gave me a cool chain. Its my favourite

He died while I was in the ward. So in a weird fucked up way, I was the nearest family member to him when he died. And he didn't even know it

He wouldve been right across the street

I dunno. its like. really weird. i guess we were both kinda having the week of our lives then haha

I dont even know how im supposed to feel right now. it feels really fucking weird. i didnt even know he died until i got out

its like the worst just stopped for a week

but now its running again

I found out because my mom had mentioned something about my abuela being alone in the house. and i thought. doesnt she have tio david with her? so obviously i said that. and my mom just kinda got quiet

its so weird. everything is weird. i wish nothing would ever be weird again

1.14.2025

applying for federal aid who cheered

something something money something something capitalism something something someone should overthrow the government

I am so tired sighhhhh I wanna go homeeee

And i still have actual school work to do bru. OH MY GOD SHITTTTT IM GONNA MISS MY DUALENROLLMENT PERIOD TMR FOR AUTISM SCREENING STUFF UGHHGHRGKDHSKSGV

God wants me dead and he said it with a slash srs tonetag

im gonna be such a starving artist in college dude its so joever

1.11.2025

we got a new dog

i dont know how to feel

bad, i guess. Idk. im like. ughjhgj its all just weird, its so weird

For months after Lilly died I would hear her little claws pitter-pattering on the wooden floors, and now I hear that again, but this time its real

But this time its not from her

I never wanted a new dog,, i dont want to replace her. i thought it would just be wishful thinking but now the dog is actually here and im just like. god no this wasnt supposed to happen. This was just supposed to be my family's dumb dream about getting another dog. It wasnt actually supposed to happen so soon.

released a comic about my dead dog and accidentally gave my mom closure, NEVER MAKE VENT COMICS THAT SHIT GETS YOU A NEW DOG!!!!

1.9.2025

HI GUYS new state law says students cant have any personal electronics at school, or face expulsion. So. no updates at school bc my HS blocked neocities!

Thus, I am going to start working on my Nekoweb project. This project will just consist of mockup websites that my mascots are from. All my mascot ocs are from a website, hence them being mascots, so im making their home sites!

Excited to get rolling on this project, we will start with Hammock!

But yea. just updating to get the word out that i havent forgotten about anchorgutz, ive just been at school. LOVE MY NEW CLASSES IM SO HAPPYYYYYY!!! I have game design and web design!!!! This dude I sit next 2 in game design is cool asf so life is GOOD!!!

1.6.2025

ITS MY FAV HOLIDAY YAY WHO CHEERED

FELIZ DIA DE LOS REYES MAGOS!!!

I usually have school today,, but this year we're off for some reason. Idk why. it feels weird, im used to spending my Reyes at school. Surrounded by people. Kinda weird that its different this year hahah

I wanna get back into making music tbh, I have some songs for the makeshift album Dog Songs done, but none are released anywhere. I also wanna work on the videography project i was doing for Celer.net. It wasnt good, but it was fun, and it meant a lot to me

Anyway yea I think my mom just got home? maybe? so since I have nothing else to update on, ill end it here ahah. Feliz dia de reyes a todos

1.2.2025

hyperfixating on digital circus and having to call the bank to fix my acc is not the best way to start the year. nonetheless. i am super happy bc i lowk feel empty without a fixation

I made ragatha pixelart yesterday so maybe ill make a shrine. idk. we'll see ^_^

MY FAV HOLIDAY IS COMING UP SOON!! Dia de Reyes here we come... only 4 days away.... can you believe it guys? christmas, just a week away!

Anyway ive been doing nothing but creating nonsense tadc image edits. We are never going anywhere bru

i cant believe i turn 18 this year

there were lots of fireworks last night. i suppose celebrating the first day of the new year having concluded. I remember new years eve, 2019, i was standing on the stairs in my parents room watching the countdown from afar. I was really excited for the year to end. It had been so hellish with her. I was scared for and of everyone the entire year. And then the clock hit 12 and it was over. It was a new year so I didnt have to be scared anymore

I think that was the first time I ever stayed up to see the ball drop in Times Square. That was when I decided I liked new years

I shouldve wished them both a happy new year, but im glad i didnt, maybe we can all leave each other in the past this time

I wish my memory was better, maybe if all that dumb stuff didnt take up so much space, i'd be a lot happier. A lot easier to be around

But its 2025 now and Im gonna have shit like college and work to worry about soon. No time to be thinking about garbage like "being groomed" or "that weird toxic situationship we had after breaking up"

Time to be an adult. happy 2025. this year is gonna be mine

1.1.2025

Happy New Years my dear crows ^_^