Weezer in OCTOBER!!! - 4.6.2026

LETS START WITH THE TITLE!!!!!!!!!!!! Im gonna see Weezer in concert in October WHO CHEERED. I DID.!!!!!!!! fuck i love Weezer. Speaking of musicians, been getting into Joost lately. Like, a LOT. Depending on what day you're reading this, you may find that my entire lastfm is Joost. And if you're reading this late, then check my listens for last week and today, and youll see.

In other news, sorry for not updating as much. It's been like 2 weeks, and I know that because I'm over 2 weeks on T now and I have yet to update the masses about it AT ALL. For those of you who care/want to go on HRT someday yourselves, here's what I'm feeling so far:

• Voice is kinda scratchy, but only cracks very rarely
• Period is lighter than literally ever in my entire LIFE. And only lasted like 4 days
• Hair growing a little faster. Super awesome, that's like one of the things I was really looking forward too

So yea, there's also the explicit details that i technically COULD get into given this is my own site, but I will abstain. Only because I know I have younger friends who check here and I just. Eugh. I don't like that idea at all. But yea, that's how it's going so far. I'm able to deepen my voice a little bit more but it hasn't fully dropped or anything, obviously LOL. I might just be crazy but I definitely feel more masculine. I dunno. It might be the placebo affect there but I don't care either way, it makes me feel good therefore it's awesome.!!!!!!!!!

Well. that's my monthly update. joke, ill try to get into talking here again more bc I miss it really bad. I heart my website!!! I was using tumblr a lot more for a while there so I just need to lock back in to my site. Ughhhhhhh no motivation to do anything on here tho. I feel like im dead. I have so many ideas but I cant do any of them. Whatever, later problem!!! It's 2am goodbye anchorgutz

Waking Up - 3.22.2026

Well I finally got my phone!!!! iPhone 16 for those who care. It's pretty cute, its a nice blue color. I themed my interface after Girls' Last Tour

It got delayed on the 19th because I was, in fact, not there to sign for it. And so it got rescheduled to FRIDAY. BUt THEN. UPS decided it was going to be CLOSED ON FRIDAY. So it came today. yippee!!!!! I don't have a case for it tho so its naked and afraid right now. Im so scared to even lay it down in fear of scratching it.. gulp.

On another note, I forgot to update the day after my appointment. I was prescribed 20.25mg of T gel daily and was accidentally forced to come out to my dad because of insurance problems. So I guess that's where we are right now. It went pretty well, it basically was "Autistic people are more likely to think they're trans when they're really not, but I don't think you're autistic, and you're an adult so I'll support you" LMAOOOOO???

Diagnosed with autism BTW. But whatever, if it works it works LOLLLL

So yea, this is gonna be my third day on T. I'm updating at 2am so I obviously have yet to apply, lest I roll around getting testosterone all over my bed during the night. But holy shit dude, just the fact that I have access to T in of itself has done wonders for my mental health. All the sudden I want to work out, keep myself clean, tidy up my room, get all my shit done. It's mental. All the sudden I'm mister self care. I keep finding myself excited for the day to pass just because I know that the NEXT day, I'll be able to do my next dose. It's so crazy, like, fucking surreal honestly. I don't want this taken from me

I want people to notice, but I don't exactly have a plan for what I'm meant to do when my coworkers notice

Guess I just have to lather T gel on my hands before work and microdose all my coworkers #forcemasc

Tom's Treacherous Trip to the Planned Parenthood - 3.19.2026

The big day is here.

It's currently 10:30am as I write this, my appointment is at 12:45pm. I'll be out of the house by 11:50am probably to get there on time

I'm doing a lot of stuff for the first time today. I'm going to a doctor's appointment by myself, one that I scheduled on my own, and I'll be paying for out of pocket. I may have to get bloodwork done all on my own for the first time since I was in the psych ward. I'm a little scared of it, really. When I think of getting my blood done, I still think about being held down and screamed at. I don't want to freak out on these people, I'm a grown adult, I can't freak out. Idk, it'll probably be fine. Maybe this will be good. It'll be positive association or whatever

Anyway, life is gonna get tough soon. I'm accepting that. I don't want things to change but I guess that's what happens when you decide to take male sex hormones without telling any of your immediate family. Go figure!

Okay my computer is dying and I want to get coffee before I go, so I'm cutting this short. I'll say how things went tomorrow. Also I should be getting a new phone because mine has reached the end of her lifespan, gotta put 'er down... I'm supposed to sign for it, but it arrives today, so idk if I'll be in the city or not. Good luck to my new phone I guess

Spiritually ? - 3.2.2026

Mymy Schoppenboer birthday tomorrow

On a serious note. Lots of political tension lately. My heart goes out to Iran, I celebrate their freedom from the dictator but also mourn the casualities that occured. Civilians should never have to be involved in the conflict of world leaders. I totally get that it's to celebrate the displacement of a corrupt leader, but I also have this feeling that the USA is planning something. Mostly because of Trump's seeming obsession with owning random countries like Greenland. It just makes me wonder if he's trying to get into countries with a struggling government. Rebuilding after a dictator is removed is NOT EASY. It's incredibly labourious on the government and its citizens. So who's to say, I guess we'll see what happens.

Idk. Politics are complicated and I genuinely believe I am not educated enough on this situation to say any more, so I'll leave it at that until I learn more. If I'm gonna be a stupid American, I'll do it in private where the rest of the world isn't too affected by it

Spiritually American - 2.17.2026

im lowkirkenuinely a god at this college stuff. No idea whats going on in my other class but I got a 98 on my homework and hopefully I will do the same on my quiz. That'll make up for the fact that i dunno how to code in java <3

Fuuuuuck Java!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Coding in Javascript genuinely might the the easiest thing ive ever learned. I thought it would be so hard but it's way easier than I thought!!! Im gonna start making javascript stuff on here for u guys to interact with at some point, it could be fun...... Maybe I'll post my Javascript assignments or somethin easy like that. ANyhow, speaking of class, i was the first one here and the ONLY one for about 5 minutes. More people have piled in nowbut class hasbeen going on for like 40 minutes now LMAOO holy coooooked

I need some light in my life ummm Im gonna work on requests when I get home and then maybe even try to do a page of FSR. It's been so long ughhh I wanna do my comics im just so lazy n stuff (depressed)

I updated my tumblr last night and made a new intro post... which you should go like and reblog right now... I also did one for my main page but idc everyones seen that shit already, I have like 300 followers there. My personal only has 80, I'm too niche..... FOllow me im so funny i post the funniest stuff ever hahahahahhaa and art i post furries too n stuff

FInal update of the morning: i am in a qpr everyone say "welcome back, berk!" Real ones remember this name...

Rawdogging Life - 2.11.2026

Ignore all previous posts. im gonna become normal trust me

I'm watching a video about Art History because I have a test in that class today. I go to class in like 30 minutes so I hope it got it all figured out by then LMAO. Speaking of art, I opened up art requests on Tumblr and people have been requesting a LOT. It's all Ongezellig stuff so its awesome. And it makes me happy bc so far 75% of the requests have been gay or transgender, which makes me feel a little more accepted in this hellish community <3

So far I've drawn Maya x Cleo and Maya in a tux. I really am enjoying doing these requests, I feel so tumblr... It's like running an ask blog in 2016.

Now I get to go to my Data Structures class and just fight for my life because I have no idea what's going on and I don't want to ask. I'll just watch a video and code until I figure it out eventually. Somethings I've got down, but it gets a little tricky RIP. Ok I gotta lock in bc it's almost 10:30 and I don't wanna be late. I considered just skipping but given my current state in the class I think maybe I just shouldn't do that LMAOO

Spiritually Canadian - 2.9.2026

I love the Olympics

You need an NBC subscription to watch them this year in the US. So I've been watching Canadian broadcasting. Feel very Canadian now, almost patriotic even

Been getting a lot of stuff done lately, making antlers and drawing stuff for people. Ummmmmmmmmm I have a lot of ideas and a lot of feelings right now. Got listed in the same sentence as a borderline pedophile and an abuser the other day so i'm still mad about that, fuck you too I guess. Everybody sucks except for me cause I'm awesome and full of wonderful ideas and genius. People piss me offffffffffffffff!!!!!!!!!!! They should invent shoes that make you taller but aren't obviously platforms.. They should invent something to make everybody shut up for like 3 seconds maybe

I think im unhealthy right now but idc idc idc idc idcccccc I gotta finish this drawing and then the next drawing and just keep drawing weird meaningless furry art until im famous enough to die in a big house in LA with 3 cats and a dog because I LOVE CAPITALISM

Idk where im at right now i jst feel like my chest is empty but my head is full and i need to do stuff ok GO TEAM #mooddisorder

Mass Suicide @ 6pm EST - 2.4.2026

I was way too honest in the psych ward and now its really fucking me over. Curse my stupid recovery life.

I forgot to remove my nailpolish before going to school today, so my nails are half covered half not. I need to remove it before work bc I can't have it looking this shitty at my job. Technically not even supposed to have my nails painted at all, really. Ummm I'm in class rn updating on the desktops. I wanna write a piece about how much I relate to Maya from Ongezellig but these keys r LOUDDD!! sooo i might just do it in my next class. I heart internet programming bc i dont pay attention at all and still have a 93 <3 guess im just a natural born programmr lolllz

Been thinking about getting into a horrible ideology and ruining my life lately. idk ummmmm i dont have a lot of options. maybe ill join a self harm cult or something. i wanna die kind of but not really enough to do anything about it. ill just keep talking to randoms on Reddit until i feel accomplished, so forever, basically.

ughhhhhhh life feels empty right now sorry idk what to do or say or anything. im just gonna keep drawing and listening to neutral milk hotel and rewatching ongezellig 50 times every day

i was especially fucked up on feb 1st so let me say this now: happy black history month!! learn your history, stay updated, dont let it repeat itself.

Spiritually Dutch - 2.1.2026

I'm at a very Ongezellig time in my life right now. Maya speaks to me via Discord dms

I have a mild fear of everybody and i want to rot away and interacting with real people is just pissing me off lately. idk UGH!!!! I DONT WANNT DO ANyTHING EVER AGAINNNNNNNNN

I have nowhere else to say this so, dear reader, you now carry the weight of my conscious. But anyway. My eating disorder has lowkey returned. I am upset and hungry and in a perpetually bad mood. I'm walking around in circles to try and justify eating breakfast OH MY GOD SHUT UPPPPPPPPPP I hate it here I hate this game bro. I want to ignore everyone and disappear forever. Goodbye world hello room lets all kill ourselves

Im so hungry but I got duped into eating yesterday so I have to make up for it im genuinely about to lose it. idk I ran around a lot yesterday too. maybe that counts for something. ok sorry this is anchorgutz not anorexiagutz lets get back on track here!!!!!!!!!!!

Finn. If you still check my website i miss you. idc. I miss everyone who ever loved my art. Nobody will ever love me or my art like that again ever ever everrrrrr fuck. BE A FAN OF ME BE OBSESSED I NEED IT AGAINNNNNN UGHHHGJDHSKGJJJJJJJGGJBndbv Kill Earth is back in cycle but im a grown adult who cant afford to lose any more friends. I will have nobody if I start to act like a dick again. Whatever I'll just ignore everyone forever until people beg for me to come back cause they need me. There has to be at least one person who needs me.

I hate sex and I hate talking and I hate people and I hate the internet and I love it all too

Packed Schedule - 1.14.2026

20 minutes late to class im lowkey cooked. But its not my fault bc one of my classes is literally 20 minutes away NOT COUNTING TRAFFIC. Luckily my professor is very understanding <3 I heart Prof Hacker thanx girl

The concept of being named Hacker and teaching a web dev class...

I have work tonite and i rlly dont wanna go. I wont have any time to eat anything so ill just starve to death and DIE at my job. say your goodbyes. Hopefully, i wont have to work Monday-Wednesday anymore after this because I updated my availability for work. Bc I'm gonna be driving 40 minutes home in school-dismissal traffic. My class ends at 3:45 and I work at 5. I have to get home, change, and then get to work. I may be cooked. Worst comes to worst, I call them and say "btw I am a student and my school is 40 minutes away <3 sorry youll have to bear without me for 5 minutes" but in a much more respectful way, obvs.

I may have to drink a monster bc I am fucking exhausted. Woke up at 8am, went to sleep at 3am, and I've been in class all day. I'm complaining about this one singular day as if this isnt EXACTLY what high school is like every day LMAOOOO I lowkey have it good.

Speaking of which, in May I'll be officially one year graduated from high school. Wwoooof. Weird. I dont like that at all. yknow what else i dont like. THIS FUCKING STOMACH ACHE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY STOMACH HURTS!!!!!!!!!

Killed myself 300 times over.o k goodbye im locking in

First Day at Gay College - 1.12.2026

Ive been updating every 6 days im lowkey locked in

BACK AT SCHOOOOOOOOOOL!!!!!!!! I went to comic con on Saturday and met the one, the only, legendary Tom Kenny!!! He was very nice and signed my shitty parody art from 2024. Thank you Mr Kenny. Literally one of my, if not all-time, favorite voice actors. Very glad I got to meet him and get stuff signed :3 It's dumb but Adventure Time means a lot to me and got me through tough shit, so meeting a VA was really nice

Anyway, I'm updating in class so I fear the people around me can probably hear my keyboard clicking. RIP. It's unfortunate bc the guy across from me is actually rlly cute and lowkey transition goals. Making a fool of myself on day one. Also I've been barely paying attention but I'm locked back in now (I say as I update my website while listening to Devi Mccallion in my ear. Holy cooked.)

Not much else to say for now but I wanted to update anyway. Baiii

DIA DE REYES - 1.6.2026

HELLO EVERYONE ITS MY FAVORITE HOLIDAYYYY

I got a little Ragatha keychain today I am SO HAPPYYYYY!!! And I got Jersey Mikes. I heart Jersey Mikes. I'm hanging out with my pal today too which is awesum. I finally have a day off after like 5 days in a row of working. So tired. ALSO. Movieunleashers Starters is definitely my new thing. I drew Chespin, Fennekin, and Mudkip the other day at church. I love them a lot. I also tried drawing Braixen but I didn't have a reference RIP

NEW DISVENTURE CAMP ON THE 17TH PLEASE BE GOOD. It occured to me recently that All Stars is likely the last time we'll see Aiden and Jake interact which is actually so sad bc I liked the friendship they formed. Unless they make a slice-of-life spinoff (NOT TOMJAKE. FUCK TOMJAKE.) which I would totally watch because I heart domestic stories. Sometimes I like a little joy. ONC has an obsession with everyone being troubled and unfortunately I can't even hate bc I'm the same way with my ocs. Nobody gets a break.

But yea. On another note that isnt' related to TV or the internet for once, I might go on a drive today or something. Last time I went on a drive, I ended up on a mysterious island. So maybe I'll do that again to see what other islands I can find. I live by the lake so it's not unheard of, I just. Idk. You don't usually find yourself on mysterious islands no matter where you live. AGHHH 6 DAYS UNTIL SCHOOL STARTS. MY MONEY IS GONNA BE DRAINED FROM GAS PRICES!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Driving an hour for fun >>>> driving an hour every day to get to school. Luckily, my actual days of class have been cut down so I only really have class for 3 days. So that's a whole 2 hours of driving cut out of my schedule, thank god. I like driving, it's just expensive since my car only holds like 10 gallons of gas and it's around 16 years old.

OK IM DONE GOODBYE!!!

its 2016!!!!!! - 1.1.2026

Happy new years everyone :3

New Years Eve and Day are some of my favorite holidays. I love watching clocks turn to midnight on New Years Eve, it's genuinely my favorite thing ever. I was at work yesterday telling all my coworkers how excited I was to watch the clocks turn LMAOO

AND. New Years Day falls on my favorite day of the week... THURSDAYYYY this is literally a good omen if i've ever seen one. This year is MINEEEE BRO. ON GOD. Anyway, went to a Keith Haring exhibit today which was pretty cool. I've always seen the art but I didn't really know shit about him. It was really cool learning about the actual activism he did. Nice stuff. Made me think about if I could become a cool artist like that, but then I remembered that I just draw furries and it's not exactly the prime definition of fine art.

But yep, had a good day, went to work, came home and got Cookout. Life is wonderous!!! Saw my fav coworkers and everything is nice. And I started watching Movieunleashers Starters. So maybe that's my new thing, idk. Still waiting for s5 of DVC to come out. Guess I'm a Starters fan now HELPP starting the new year off strong I guess

Gonna set my first appointment for HRT this month btw wish me luck lolz